Finally blogging...happy birthday Ben!!
Awewwww I am am having headach...and got a feeling that I am gng to have flu:(
hmmmmmmmmm I actually have a lot to post a lot a lot a lot...
But when I finally use my mother's phone to blog...den I dun Noe wat to blog...
I think I ...arg forget it.

why is life like that

why is life so unfair

why is life to cruel

why is life filled with lies.

why is life so painful

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滿園玫瑰我以為找到我那一朵
認真愛了卻狠狠刺傷我的雙手
責備什麼人也沒有用
玫瑰都紅 難免看錯











望著天空愛是否活在童話裏頭
小王子說有些事流浪過才會懂

talked to my nice boyfriend

feel better

thanks munyee:)

today went to smu for meeting

hmm i remembered most of the lines:)

came home

hello pple at least reply me

and only kenneth replied me!

please! reply!

ahhhhhhhhh

kae bye

frm munyee blog:

When she stares at your mouth - Kiss her
When she pushes you or hits you - Grab her and dont let go
When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough - Kiss her and tell her you love her
When she's quiet - Ask her whats wrong
When she ignores you - Give her your attention
When she pulls away - Pull her back
When you see her start crying - Just hold her and don't say a word
When you see her walking - Sneak up and hug her waist from behind
When she's scared - Protect her
When she steals your favorite hoodie - Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night
When she teases you - Tease her back and make her laugh
When she looks at you with doubt - Back yourself up
When she says that she loves you - she really does more than you can understand
When she grabs at your hands - Hold her's and play with her fingers
When she bumps into you; - bump into her back and make her laugh
When she tells you a secret - keep it safe and untold
When she looks at you in your eyes - dont look away until she does
When she says it's over - she still wants you to be hers
When she reposts this - she wants you to read it
**and when she says something and she doesnt mean it
forgive her and know she loves you more than anything in the world
- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
-Treat her like she's all that matters to you
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid
- Give her the world
-Let her wear your clothes
-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
-Let her know she's important
-Don't talk about other girls around her

why do i feel so sour.

very very sour

sudden urge of.

letting myself down

letting my tears fall

tears for what i dont noe

but i noe..those tears inside is telling me.

i need to cry

i need to talk

i need to hide in a place.

i need someone.

I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be if you realise all the dreams you have inside dont be afraid you have got something to say just open you heart and let it show you the way.

i will be posting japan stuff on the other blog.

so.ya look forward:)

gone for a week guess i missed out a lot

what cca open house?

when?what is it?for wat?

nobody told me

i am like staying at home

haix.

today is christmas

and guess wat?

i staying at home

seeing videos

not from youtube

but from my daddy's video cam

waiting him to sent me those japan pics frm his dslr

ytd went to jp twice

morning got there eat breakfast

den evening go eat dinner

met up with pris and yz.

passed pris the present

she was so happy

but i felt bad

cuz poor yz have to see pris open her present and he dont have one

haha

not i dont wanna buy.is not enough

and things there are dam freaking ex kae

he asked me go orchard with them go play "snow"

but i played with real snow before so snow with inverted commas doesnt interest me

haha

finally watching videos in japan

haha

i mean taken in japan

scary scary dream

almost every kid dream being chased by monsters when they was young and woke up crying looking for their mum

i woke up with sweat and my pillow was wet.

not my saliva but my tears.

i msged bananas becce xinying and xueyi

i was shivering

i waited for replies to save me and tell me its a dream its ok

and waited for someone to tell me"i am with you dont be afraid"

den my first reply came.

becca my mommie.

she ask me kill th monster

den xueyi reply she scare me even more she say the monster all wan to eat me cuz i naughty.

den she say i very cute.its only a dream.the monster is fake de unless is human,

but in the dreams its human but the are monster.

pearlyn told me dont scared cuz its only a dream

i told becca i cried.

she comfort me.

den tell methe monster died when i woke up frm the nightmare.

so i can go back to slp.

thank you mommie.

i went to get tissues to clean up.

den went back to slp.

when i woke up.

i saw shuyun and nicole reply.

nicole say my dreams very interesting.

cuz last time i dreamt abt her.hehe

den shuyun say she dream of meijia.

i was wondering how come i sudd got this dream.

den i realised i watch doomsday ytd night.

that why i got this night mare.

i rmb that time i young that time i watch ghost ship.

den i whole night nvr slp.

i close my eyes i see the girl.

:(i dont like night mares:(

if i was to disappear...

what will happen?

i got so bored that i started thinking of any possibilities that might happen to me.

and maybe some of the impossible things

what will happen if i disappear.

what will happen if i realised i have some incurable sickness?

what will happen if i dont live in singapore

what will happen if i am not in the world

what will happpen if i didnt ................

kae that one cannot reveal.

bye

munyee...

really?

who are you really

i want to noe.

before going in to the trap

who are you

what are you like

don you even care

i wan to noe

but i noe

i wont get the chance to ..

i am a bad friend arent i?

i guess so.

friends around me feel bad and i dont noe.

i only noe to look for them when i not happy.

i only noe that i need them when i am sad

but i am not there when they need

they didnt call me when they need

maybe they have other.

but why dont include me?

why dont come find me?

why do i always choose the wrong time?

when i always ask are you ok?

you need to talk?

they always say.

they need time on their own..

i am a bad friend

hello

i am so bored.

really really bored...

the show hor.

the woman so bad!!

bad bad woman

dont like u .

pple got wife liao still like that!!

i go slap u lar!

haha

the show is call i do

two more days:)

den i will poof!!

haha disappear awhile.

a week haha

dont miss me!

lol

like who will miss me lor

i got hurt

painfully.

thank you

alda cuz u gave me a pink ribbon hairband

cuz she promised

she kept her promised

thankyou:)

she passed me a "shut u up"toothbrush

hehe

nope she is not trying to shut me up.

but cuz the brush is pink so she gave me :)

i promised alda to delete the bad bad memories

so now

i am only left with good memories

i went to piano lesson at 1 den chionged to jp at arnd 2

den saw dada and daryl at lakeside mrt

took train tgt den bought new moon movie tickets:)

den when to eat

den walked arnd to find nailpolish removal:)

but gaved up.

den walked arnd frm converse to everlast den back to converse agn

cuz daryl wan to buy shoes

den went for the movie

alda complains that the movie is boring

den she wan to slp

but i dun wan to slp

hehe

i like movies:)

no matter who watch with me

its better than alone

movie ended came home

i am hungry

i ate

i am lonely

i am crazy.

i dont noe whats wrong with me

when i am alone

i will take my phone out.

press menu

press gallery

press image

and stare...

when i am outside

i will look arnd

looking out.

if i would ever see u

i noe its impossible

but cant help it

i love my boyfriend:)

she painted my nails for me!!

i like do manicure lor!

i like my nails!!

dam scared i spoil it!!

haha

want to see my nice nice nails??

dun let u see!

wipe my tears and move on..

when will my reflection show who i am inside

i stared at my reflection in the mirror

its me

but not me

cuz i dont noe who i am

who will i be

its not up to me.

omg!today is a very happy day!!!!!!!

very very happy day!!!!!

shall post ltr

bye

kind of busy now

:)

oh god i am crazy

munyee i sick

haha

fine den i am

eh wait

i am not

munyee

not i sick lor

is...

***** lar!!!!

all *** fault!!!

why like that!!!

fine i admit i am sick now

i wan cry liao

really gng crazy

oh ya did i mention

i went to watch 2012 woth my family last sat.

at 12 am!!!!

like omg!!!

the movie was like soooooo nice!

but my mama say very fake

den she slp in the begining lor!!

like my dad woke her up like three times!!!

i reached hme at arnd 3 plus!!!!!!!

gosh everytime i on com.

guess wats the first thing i do?

go fb

and check.

but always is disappointed.

haix..

nvm i just realised i very long nvr post le

haha

oh btw bananas go see our blog my post

haha

I use to Noe the feeling of crying Alone I hate the feeling so I told myself not to cry. At least not alone.so I hardly cry alone but now I Noe the feelinG of wanting to cry but no tears comes down this feel is even worse I don't mind crying alone but I don't want to cry without tears. I am so emo recently I don't Noe why I jus wan to hid myself in a corner anD hoping I would just disappear.no one wIll Noe.I don't wan anyone to Noe.if I had a wish now I wish to disappear and let no one Noe. May my wish come true.u toLd me life I precious.but to me life now is wat I hate.plus disappearing doesn't means dying .

i was so bored..

den i watched tv

den got this policeman show

den very jin zhang you noe!

got one lady police kena catch by the bad guy

den hor

he wan kill him le

den i was talking to munyee abt that

see wat we say

imperfection---------------who cares says:

i watching th police show

Munyeeeeeeeeeee says:

Oh

my grandmother watching also

imperfection---------------who cares says:

haha very jin zhang

Munyeeeeeeeeeee says:

HHASHAHAHAH

the SOUND EFFECT

heheh

imperfection---------------who cares says:

.ya

ooh

so nice

oh no finish

:(

Munyeeeeeeeeeee says:

HAHHAHAA

YEAH

imperfection---------------who cares says:

:(

so dangerous

boom!

Munyeeeeeeeeeee says:

DON'T SAD!

imperfection---------------who cares says:

den u kena bang!

Munyeeeeeeeeeee says:

WOAH

i must act!

aiyurhhhh

airyuhhhhhh

BOOOOM

on the flooor

DEAD.

imperfection---------------who cares says:

den

Munyeeeeeeeeeee says:

hhhehhehe

imperfection---------------who cares says:

ahhhh

i dun wan to die

Munyeeeeeeeeeee says:

BIIIIII POR BIII PORH

imperfection---------------who cares says:

if i die

no

i noe i am gng to die

pls

live on

haha

Munyeeeeeeeeeee says:

HAHHAHAHAHAHHA

imperfection---------------who cares says:

help me revenge.

wo si de hao wu gu ahhhh

Munyeeeeeeeeeee says:

HAHHAHA

imperfection---------------who cares says:

haaha

really

wat

thats what they always say

Munyeeeeeeeeeee says:

haha

imperfection---------------who cares says:

oh

they will use their last breath to day

Munyeeeeeeeeeee says:

serious?

imperfection---------------who cares says:

munyee

i love you

Munyeeeeeeeeeee says:

yehayeha

imperfection---------------who cares says:

haha

den ah

Munyeeeeeeeeeee says:

HAHAHHAHAH

imperfection---------------who cares says:

den die

Munyeeeeeeeeeee says:

thats what they always do lorh

SO DRAMA

imperfection---------------who cares says:

ya

haha

next time we play oso

Munyeeeeeeeeeee says:

haha

okay

OKAY GO SEEE

HAMHAM

entertain you abit

in my blog

imperfection---------------who cares says:

okie

haha munyeee...

before i die.

Munyeeeeeeeeeee says:

HAHHAHA

die what!

imperfection---------------who cares says:

i wan to tell u something i have always wanted to tell u

i ...

love....

you..

ah

munyeeeeeee

before i die of boredom..

i wan to tell you this

it has been in my heart since a very long time

i wanted to tell you long ago.

but now

if i dont tell u

i will regret forever

munyee....

i....(no breath)

love..(running out of breath)

you...(no breath.died)

i am rotting agn..

rotting at hme

so many days

i hate rotting at hme:(

hate it!!

i am dying of boredom

somebody pls save me

why is everyone having fun.

or should i say everyone has something to do except for rotting?

hate today's weather

so dam hot.

why cant it rain!!!